Posted in RANDOM THOUGHTS

Late Night Playlist (04-18-2022)

When the night comes, minsan ang sarap maging marupok noh? Charot. Nah. Let me rephrase. When the night comes, minsan ang sarap mag-senti mode. Ganon. Anyway, I just want to share some of the songs in my tonight’s playlist. Enjoy!

1. Halik – Kamikazee
“Kumupas na lambing sa iyong mga mata
Nagtataka kung bakit yakap mo’y ‘di na nadarama
May mali ba akong nagawa
Tila nag-iba ang mga kilos mo at salita
Bakit kaya
Parang hindi ka na masaya”

2. Won’t Go Home Without You – Maroon 5
“Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: ‘Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?’
Hard to believe that”

3. Need You Now – Lady Antebellum
“And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time”

4. We Don’t Talk Anymore – Charlie Puth feat. Selena Gomez
“I overdosed
Should’ve known your love was a game
Now I can’t get you out of my brain
Oh, it’s such a shame”

5. Come Back. Be Here – Taylor Swift
“I told myself, don’t get attached
But in my mind, I play it back
Spinning faster than the plane that took you
And this is when the feeling sinks in
I don’t wanna miss you like this
Come back, be here
Come back, be here”

6. Wait A Minute (Speed Up Version) I Think I Left My Consciousness in the 6th Dimension – Hiko
“Hold on, wait a minute
Feel my heart’s intention, oh
Hold on, wait a minute
I left my consciousness in the 6th dimension
Left my soul in his vision
Let’s go get it, oh, oh
Let’s go get it, oh, oh”

7. Collide (Acoustic Version) – Howie Day
“Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide”

8. Shouldn’t Be – Luke Chiang
“I’m already used to it
I’m already used to you bein’ this cold
But keepin’ you close shouldn’t be hard
If you were honest when you said you missed me
You’ve played with my pride
Makin’ me feel like we had somethin’ real…
…And makin’ you stay shouldn’t feel wrong
This is the last time I’ll ask you to listen
I’ve played all my cards
Would you feel a thing if you saw me right now?”

9. Love Is Waiting – Brooke Fraser
“And like I can’t force the sun to rise
Or hasten the summers start
Neither should I rush my way into your heart
I’ll be waiting for you, baby
I’ll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we’re ready
Til it’s right”

10. Dear No One – Tori Kelly
“But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me the jacket when it’s cold
Got that young love even when we’re old
Yeah, sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end”

11. Mr. Perfectly Fine – Taylor Swift
“Hello Mr. ‘Perfectly fine’
How’s your heart after breaking mine?
Mr. ‘Always at the right place at the right time, ‘ baby
Hello Mr. ‘Casually cruel’
Mr. ‘Everything revolves around you’
I’ve been Miss ‘Misery’ since your goodbye
And you’re Mr. ‘Perfectly fine’.”

12. Simula Pa Nung Una – Patch Quiwa
“Sinubukan ko naman na pigilan ang nararamdaman
Kahit mahirap lumayo at umiwas sayo
Pano ba naman
Isang ngiti isang tingin kahit boses mo na ring nakakatunaw
‘Wag nang pansinin
Delikado na delikado na”

13. Higa – Arthur Nery
“Konting pilit pa ba ang kailangan
O sadyang ‘di ako ang gusto
Kaunting silip naman
Sa aking nararamdaman sa ‘yo”

14. Pasalubong – Ben&Ben feat. Moira Dela Torre
“Mga gabing nakatingin
Sa salaming nagtatanong sakin
Kailan kaya
Makakamit
Pagsuyo na hindi binabalik
Maghihintay ako
Hanggang mapasayo
Pasalubong naman
Sa’king nararamdaman
‘Pag umamin sayo
Sana ay mapagbigyan”

15. Iba – Zack Tabudlo feat. Moira Dela Torre
“Hindi ko ba nasabi sa ‘yo
Mga kailangan kong itago
No’ng panahon na lagi kong nakikita
Na iba’ng ngiti mo?
Nahulog ka na ba sa iba?
Naghihintay lang ba ako sa wala?
Wala naman palang tumatalab
Sa ginawa ko para sa ‘ting dalawa”

Posted in LETTERS, RANDOM THOUGHTS, REFLECTIONS

“ETO NGA PALA ANG SINAYANG KO”

Sa unang lalaking nagpatibok ng aking puso,  para sa’yo ‘to.

Kamusta ka?  Tingin ko masaya ka na ngayon.  Balita ko may sarili ka nang pamilya. May magandang asawa at isang cute na anak na babae. Wala akong gaanong impormasyon tungkol sa’yo dahil nga matagal mo na akong binlock sa Facebook.

Alam ko. Oo.  Ang pinto mo para sa akin ay matagal nang sarado at nakakandando mga siyam (9) na taon na nakararaan.

Minsan habang nag eexplore ako sa FB,  hindi ko sinasadyang mahanap ang account mo sa isang mutual friend. Doon,  nakita ko ang masayang buhay mo ngayon.

Sa totoo lang,  I felt bittersweet.

“Eto nga pala yung sinayang ko,” bulong ko sa sarili ko.

Ang funny noh?

Kung hindi lang ako naging duwag noon,  siguro.. Siguro may chance pa tayo.  Siguro…

Kapag inaalala ko ang ilang bagay tungkol sa’yo, hindi ko mapigilang mamiss ka.  Yung ngiti mo.  Yung mga titig mo. Yung boses mo.  Lalo na yung mga mapupungay mong mata.

Wag kang mag-alala.  Nakamove on na rin naman ako. Tanggap ko naman na ang katotohanan na malabo nang maging tayo. Tanggap ko na na ang kaligayahan mo ay hindi sa piling ko.

Ngunit ayoko rin namang lokohin ang sarili ko.  Oo,  minsan naiisip pa rin kita.  Minsan, hindi ko sinasadyang mamiss ka.  Alam ko namang hanggang iling na lang ako ngayon,  dahil masaya ka na kung nasan ka man ngayon.

Siguro kung sakaling mabasa mo ito, malamang tatawanan mo lang din ako. Well, ganoon talaga ang buhay.

Ngunit kung sakaling magkita man muli tayong dalawa nang personal,  sana ay..  Sana sa panahong yun ay napatawad mo na ko. Sana.. Sana maging magkaibigan man lang tayo sakaling dumating ang oras na yun. Sana..

Maingat ka palagi.

Hanggang sa muli.

Mahal,  patawad,
kung mahal pa rin kita..”
-“Ang Iwasan” by Moira Dela Torre